mean love

He even forgot to wear his slippers, and he didn't realize how fast he ran to the door of the bedroom.

It was nothing more than admitting his mistakes. In the past half month, those words of apology had been circled in his mind a thousand times; apologizing, admitting mistakes, acting like a baby, swearing, or even kneeling would do.

He has been afraid to say it because he is afraid that Yan Nuo will not forgive him.

What's more, that person came back again.

But now, Yan Nuo is at home, in the home of the two of them.

Soon, the tenderness was extinguished, and the spring water froze directly into a piece of ice, and the fine ice slag pierced straight into his heart.

His voice was cold, with a hint of sarcasm, the smile on the corner of his mouth froze into a sneer, his fingers tightly grasped the door frame, and it didn't hurt even though it was purple.

"It's only been half a month, and you can't wait to get back together with your old lover?"

Yan Nuo's hands didn't stop at all. A large 28-inch box was spread out on the floor of the bedroom. He had been home for a while, his clothes were half straightened, and the box was half filled. Naturally, he also heard the sound of Cheng Boyuan entering the door. .

In fact, he could have gone home to pack his luggage while Cheng Boyuan was at work. In fact, he had planned to do so—but the reason why he didn't in the end was that he didn't owe Cheng Boyuan. The person who dared not face him should be Cheng Boyuan, not him. .

After calming down for half a month, Yan Nuo wanted to at least ask for an explanation before going abroad, at least a defense.

Yan Nuo didn't answer, she still tidied up her clothes in an orderly manner, and didn't even give Cheng Boyuan a look.

Cheng Boyuan noticed Yan Nuo's passport on the bedside table. He had never felt the color of the passport was so dazzling.

"Why, your old lover refuses to stay for you, you want to chase after him? You don't want all the research results of these years? You love him so much, why should he?"

Words that didn't pass through the brain popped out word by word.The words were spoken by Cheng Boyuan, and what was punished was also his heart.

Yan Nuo finally paused what he was doing, straightened up, and quietly looked directly into Cheng Boyuan's eyes.

How could he have thought that Cheng Boyuan's eyes were pure and kind, always looking at him affectionately; how could he have thought that Cheng Boyuan's lips were very sexy, and the love words he uttered were as pure and intoxicating as the morning dew.

Obviously a pair of indifferent eyes, a mean mouth, and a heart full of lies.

So he also imitated Cheng Boyuan's expression, raised the corners of his lips, and said with a sneer, "How did Li Xiaoran become my old lover, isn't it you who knows the most about this matter?"

"How did Li Xiaoran become my old lover, isn't it you who knows the most about this matter?"

Yan Nuo stared closely at Cheng Boyuan's eyes, not surprisingly, he noticed the panic and bewilderment in his eyes.

He is not usually a person who is good at arguing outside, at most he would turn red and poke his neck to argue, and then go home and complain to Cheng Boyuan.

Cheng Boyuan would always comfort him with a smile until Yan Nuo's mood improved.

Cheng Boyuan's patience and gentleness seem to be infinite. Sometimes when Yan Nuo encountered some bottlenecks in the experiment and was discouraged, he would bury his head in Cheng Boyuan's arms, feel the heartbeat of the man in his hot chest, and he would fall into peace, I can't help but feel that no matter how difficult the road is, there is always a hug open to him here.

He also feels tired these days, and sometimes he might as well just think about it, it's just some old things, if he closes his eyes, year after year will pass by.

It's just that those heart-piercing words still came out of his mouth involuntarily, and at the same time as his heart was stabbed, a huge pleasure swept over him.

It's better to say it all, these past few days have fermented countless times in his heart, which made him suffer a lot, the old things of old sesame seed and rotten millet.

"Is it your fault that you changed the dormitory at that time? How did Xu Wei suddenly know my sexual orientation and report it to the department? What a coincidence that you are the only one who is willing to stand up and change to my dormitory?"

"It feels good to be the savior, right? Were you secretly happy when I trusted you with all my heart?"

Cheng Boyuan opened his mouth, but couldn't say a word.

Yan Nuo took a step forward, Cheng Boyuan had his reflection in his pupils, it was an aggressive shadow with fangs and claws, strange and frightening.

"The day I received Li Xiaoran's cheating text message, you asked me out for a drink, what were you thinking that day? Are you very proud and think I'm easy to cheat?"

"Besides these, what else have you lied to me?"

"Cheng Boyuan, liar, you make me sick."

After finishing the last sentence, he saw the light in Cheng Boyuan's eyes, and it went out.

The fierce attack did not get the expected response, Yan Nuo thought that Cheng Boyuan would make some sophistry, but the man just stood there, trembling slightly, holding the door frame with one hand.

After the two stared at each other in silence for a moment, Yan Nuo turned around, opened the closet and unpacked the luggage.

This business trip will take two weeks. The latitude of country C is relatively high, so you need to bring more cold-proof clothes. You will need to attend several international conferences during the period, so you need to bring more formal clothes.

It's just that now his mind is in a mess, his white and blue shirts are crumpled together, and he can only hear his breathing getting more and more chaotic.

And the sudden laughter behind him.

"Do you regret it? Yan Nuo?"

He turned his head.

"Because of Li Xiaoran, I made you feel sick? Now Li Xiaoran hooks his fingers at you, and you lean towards him like a dog. What do you take me for?"

Cheng Boyuan changed his standing posture, walked up to Yan Nuo, and continued to speak coldly with the corners of his mouth drawn into a straight line.

"Why don't you think I'm sick when you're begging me to fuck you in bed—"

"You bastard!"

This quarrel eventually turned into a fight with live ammunition. Yan Nuo didn't know how to fight, and he had never punched before, but he instinctively knew how to clench his fists and hit the opponent's face hard. He used ten percent of his strength , the bones of his hand were numb, and Cheng Boyuan, who was 1.8 meters [-], was hit by him and took a few steps back. The whole person retreated sideways with inertia. Bloody mouth.

"Hey... was I right? I really didn't expect you to do it for him. Yan Nuo, feel your conscience and ask yourself, have I treated you badly these years? Who paid the down payment for this house? Who repaid the loan?" Cheng Boyuan bent down and casually picked up the suit on the bed, and raised his voice, "I'll pick out everything for you, clothes, cellphones, etc. No matter how busy I am at work, I'll go home as early as possible Eat with you. How about you?"

"Where have you been for half a month? Have you slept with Li Xiaoran?"

……

His eyes were red, he clenched his fists tightly, and the two wrestled together, Yan Nuo punched out of nowhere, using all his strength for each punch; Cheng Boyuan first tried to block, but couldn't help pushing back in the confusion.

"The clothes... I'll give you back..."

"The house... I'm moving out..."

"What I owe you... I will pay it off..."

But where is it still clear?

Every piece of clothing was bought by two people holding hands while shopping; the off-white sofa in the room, the crystal fruit plate on the coffee table, and even the two blue-glazed soup spoons were bought by two people bit by bit. .

Where can it be calculated, who loves more; how can it be distinguished, which belong to their respective parts.

Ever since they put on their wedding rings five years ago, their lives have long been fused together and cannot be separated.

During the chaos, Yan Nuo was beaten to the stomach, and couldn't help but groaned. Cheng Boyuan was stunned for a moment. At that moment, Yan Nuo pushed back with his backhand, and fell on his back with a bang. Yan Nuo grabbed his collar halfway. Kneeling on the ground; feeling the coercion of the neck, Cheng Boyuan grabbed Yan Nuo's arm reflexively, trying to subdue him with brute force.

Suddenly, a piece of warmth hit his face.

Cheng Boyuan raised his head in astonishment, and soon stopped moving.

Yan Nuo cried.

Wet and hot tears fell down and fell straight onto Cheng Boyuan's face.

Yan Nuo's bangs drooped in a mess, and his glasses fell aside during the pushing and shoving just now; his eyes were red, he bit his lips tightly, his whole body was trembling, his arm holding Cheng Boyuan's neckline was covered with veins, Leng did not overflow a little cry.

It was obviously just a few tears, but Cheng Boyuan felt that a hole had been smashed through his heart.

Cheng Boyuan's palms fell on Yan Nuo's cheeks, his face was cold, but his tears were hot, and his hands were wet, making Cheng Boyuan's fingertips numb and painful, and the pain was transmitted to his heart.

It's not that he has never seen Yan Nuo cry. On the contrary, Cheng Boyuan used to like to make Yan Nuo cry on the bed. Those little tears were like his spoils of war, which made him feel that he had all Yan Nuo, including Yan Nuo. Never show the other side of people.

Cheng Boyuan never knew that tears could be so heavy and painful.

Those armors built with indifference and stubbornness collapsed in an instant, Cheng Boyuan's eloquence was no longer effective, and he began to try to please clumsily and helplessly.

"Nonuo, it's my fault...don't cry, I'm the bastard, can you hit the bastard?"

"..."

"Stop crying, stop crying...it's my fault, I'm a liar, I'm sorry, stop crying... Nuonuo..."

He was finally willing to admit that his love was despicable.

And Yan Nuo's answer was silent crying.

Cheng Boyuan said so many things today, including outrageous words and regretful apologies, but there was only one sentence that he couldn't say——

"Don't go, don't leave me, okay?"

Is despicable love a mistake from the beginning?

Does this stolen relationship need to be returned after all?

Cheng Boyuan stood in front of the window, and the weather forecast predicted that it would rain all day long, beating wantonly on the glass window, thunder rumbled in the distance, and an autumn rain added a sense of bleakness to the night.Yan Nuo was downstairs, he walked in a hurry without an umbrella, and was caught by this