I'm going crazy and I'm green

Shen Miao never thought that the journey to Beijing with his father would bring such a big change in his life.He was growing safely on the willow branch, but was blown away by a sudden wind one day, and he didn't know where he was going to go.

His father, who was praised as "clear with two sleeves", passed away on his way to Beijing to take office, leaving almost no family property, and the opportunity to study in the Imperial College that was rewarded by the Tian family.After entering the Imperial College, he met two interesting people, one of whom was named Liu Chao.

In the past, his father was an official in the local area, and he had seen the family members there. Except that the family background was more noble, Liu Chao seemed to be no different from them at first glance.But this person likes to hang around with him, so he stuck to him when he first entered the Imperial College, saying "Brother Shen" one by one.Liu Chao can always find many legitimate reasons that are difficult to refuse to ask him out, and he is sincere and eager to learn, and admires him very much, which makes him unable to hate him.What's more, even if he really hated a person, Shen Miao's temperament and family education would not allow him to keep a dark face and speak harshly at each other.

Shen Miao was taught by his father to be a gentleman since he was a child, and he couldn't help being angry or happy.At first, he felt that these words were false, that there was no sadness or joy, which was something that even the gods and Buddhas of the heavens could not do.So Xiao Shen Miao was beaten by his father with a ruler, and when hard calluses grew on the palms of his hands and a layer of calluses grew on his heart, that layer of calluses covered Yanxi, preventing them from being seen by outsiders.

Outsiders praised him every time they saw him: "The son of the Shen family is really a young man!" Father Shen smiled modestly after hearing this.

The little Shen Miao, who would climb trees and fish like ordinary children, clamoring for his mother to make snacks, gradually disappeared in his father's admiring and gratifying eyes.

Looking back, Shen Miao felt inexplicably ironic.The father who taught that "you can't help but be happy" and yourself who was praised as "youthful" are, after all, just ordinary people who like to be admired and praised by others.

When he grew up, Shen Miao was taught by his father to "change the color of the virtuous", and even the maids serving in the room were old women, not to mention the romantic pleasures that other young people talked about.The love between men and men is not a shady relationship in the gutter in this dynasty, and there are even marriages.Even so, he only found out when his father reprimanded his students that the talk about Duanxiu and Longyang was not just a joke in wild history.

Therefore, Shen Miao did not see Liu Chao's intentions when he got along with Liu Chao at the beginning, but gradually, he felt something was wrong.Liu Chao often holds ancient books and invites him to Zhuijin Pavilion to appreciate them together, but Shen Miao thinks that if Liu Chao is good at ancient books, he should concentrate on reading them, why is his eyes always on himself, and he is a bit old Appears to be casual physical contact.

Although Shen Miao was not very bright in the past, he was very intelligent, and he was not only a bookworm, he was only wise in poetry, literature and prose.Slowly, he also understood that Liu Chao probably had that kind of meaning for him.

Realizing this did not surprise him too much.What really surprised Shen Miao was that he did not object to this matter in his heart.Although he is not like a freshman in a legendary drama, he is attracted to him at first sight, regardless of his gender or identity, and devotes himself to love with all his heart, but he has a good impression of Liu Chao.

This kind of affection is like staying in the crowd wearing common clothes all year round, suddenly seeing a piece of brocade peeking out from the collar of a person, and suddenly realizing that I also want to embroider the brocade on my bosom.

On the one hand, Shen Miao felt that this feeling of sympathy was ridiculous, and because of this, he tolerated Liu Chao's many lame excuses.

Then, he met Yu Jiayan.

The child fell in front of his own door and was wrinkled by the summer sun, leaving only a pair of eyes full of tears.Later, when we met in front of the restaurant, he didn't know why he turned into an angry one again, which made him feel funny and surprised, and he didn't know where he provoked this kid.

When Yu Jiayan also entered the Imperial College, he circled around him like Liu Chao before, making up many excuses to make up for it.He once suspected that Yu Jiayan was here because of Liu Chao. After all, the two seemed very familiar, but the child shook his head and denied it.

Shen Miao looked at Yu Jiayan's bright eyes, and said softly that he would marry a woman like a princess in the future, and couldn't help but reflect on his dirty mind.

I didn't know about men and women until I was twelve or thirteen years old, Shen Miao thought guiltily, let alone such a young man who was spoiled by thousands of pampers in the princess mansion.

Apart from guilt, Shen Miao felt surprised.

In his opinion, Liu Chao is very similar to Yu Jiayan.After all, Liu Chao and Yu Jiayan are well-known happy friends in the Imperial College, but the way the two of them swayed around him seemed to be carved out of the same mold.

The only difference is that the former is like a greedy dog, wagging its fluffy tail, but does not know whether it will stretch out its claws and claws to pounce on it when it is very hungry; People found that if someone on the shore dropped the feed, he would spin around in surprise and joy, and return a string of joyful bubbles.If you want to catch him, he will swim away slippery immediately.

Shen Miao himself knew that he liked to be looked up at by others, but at first he only regarded Yu Jiayan as a cute younger brother.Until the day when Jinshi was parading through the streets, the young man in spring shirt stood in the crowd, his eyebrows curved, and he lightly threw a brocade bag into his arms.What was contained in the kit was a small goldfish with the same demeanor as a young boy.The little goldfish wobbled and spit out a string of joyful bubbles in the heart lake, causing the catkins floating in the air to fall straight down.

This strange thought came suddenly and vaguely, Shen Miao couldn't help scolding himself as a beast in his heart, but he also wondered if he was really in love with the child, maybe it was the same as before, he just treated the child like a younger brother, but it was just the day when he was parading in the street His appearance is especially pleasing.

But before he had time to think carefully, Shen Miao was about to leave again. He received orders from the Tian family to go to Qingzhou to be an official, and he would go there for four years.Four years may be just a moment in the ups and downs of many people's careers, but it can smear new people you just met into old acquaintances, and turn a child into a handsome young man.

When Shen Miao set off for Qingzhou, both Yu and Liu came to see him off. He understood the reason, but he couldn't help feeling disappointed.

After it was time to bid farewell to the last group of people who came to see him off, Shen Miao set off in a rickety carriage, leaving behind two rows of weeping willows by the street, blowing the city full of wind.

Four years... Shen Miao looked at the willow catkins outside the car window and thought... Four years later, these willow catkins flying with the wind may have taken root and sprouted.

*In the next chapter, when Shen Miao returned to Beijing, Chao Mei revealed the truth so early, just to have fun at the isosceles triangle Shura field!