I'm going crazy and I'm green

1.

Watching beautiful women singing and dancing face to face, even if the clouds are turned back to snow, it is not enough to fall in love with them.

Hearing the laughter inside the partition wall, his eyebrows and eyes are hard to see, and he hates that the wall is too high to climb.

2.

Few people know that Shen Miao has returned to the capital during his four years as a foreigner.

At that time, Shen Miao was in Qingzhou, following the emperor's order to investigate the collusion of the local tycoons.After getting the results, he secretly sent evidence back to Beijing with one or two confidants in the name of being sick in the mansion.

In fact, Shen Miao sent a secret letter to deliver the evidence to the emperor. The reason why he went there in person was to make the matter more secure and to guard against the letter being in danger halfway.

Shen Miao sat in the carriage speeding towards the capital and looked out, the willow branches on the road were just blowing, and there were children playing with willow flowers on the side of the road, all of them had innocent and bright smiling faces.

He thought to himself, on his trip back to Beijing, he didn't see if the child wanted to grow up now.

In the past few years in Qingzhou, apart from the edicts from the Tian family, what he received most were letters from Yu Jiayan.

In fact, he also had correspondence with Liu Chao and his friends in the Imperial College, but not frequently.There is no one like Yu Jiayan, who puts trivial things into his pen and ink, and tells them all to the readers.

Why was I ruthlessly abandoned by the Imperial College, how painful it was to be guarded by my father to study, and even the new snacks from Zhuijin Pavilion, the child had to describe the shape and taste carefully in the letter before giving up.

Everyone sees what they say.The letter from the child, the words on it looked like a dog's paw stepped on it. Shen Miao looked at these strokes, and a hairy, chubby puppy appeared in front of his eyes, coming forward with a broken bone in his mouth, staring to please you.

The only thing that can be regarded as a major event in the eyes of others is that the child wrote a letter with considerable annoyance saying that he was sealed as a prince after being the general manager, and the lines were full of worries about his unworthy virtue.

Shen Miao couldn't help being amused when he read the letter, and even wanted to see for himself the look on the child's face when he was named Marquis, whether he was proud or anxious.

However, Qingzhou was busy with affairs, and it was already two years later when Shen Miao went to Beijing to report back to Tianjia.

After finishing the matter, Shen Miao came out of the palace in a car.

The wind blowing all over the city floats into the doors and vehicles through the half-opened windows and slightly lifted curtains, scratching the tip of the nose and sneezing uncontrollably, almost scaring away the remaining spring scenery at the end.

By coincidence, Shen Miao let the carriage drive towards the road leading to the princess mansion.

Before the car stopped, another carriage stopped at the gate of the Princess Mansion.Shen Miao recognized that it was Yu Jiayan's ride when he went out.

The distance between the cars was not too far, Shen Miao could see Yu Jiayan get off the car.The child seems to have grown a lot taller, and the childish face in memory has gradually turned into a teenager's eyebrows and eyes.

It's just that there are red clouds flying on the boy's face, and his expression seems to be complaining.

Shen Miao was hesitating what to do, but saw another person getting off the car, Liu Chao.

After getting out of the car, Liu Chao went to hook the shoulders of the people around him, and after being pushed away in dissatisfaction, he pinched Yu Jiayan's face again.The young man's brows were frowned, as if angry or resentful. After kicking Liu Chao hard, he was still on the other side of the road, walking side by side with him, and he was about to step into the high wall of the Princess Mansion. .

That was a completely different Liu Chao, and it was Yu Jiayan that Shen Miao had never seen before.

Those intimate and unrestrained actions were beyond Shen Miao's expectation, and they were beyond the etiquette he had been taught since he was a child. He had never done it, and he dared not do it.

Besides, if he got a little closer to the boy, the latter would dodge uncomfortably, or slip away.

The curtain of the carriage was drawn suddenly, and the groom asked his lord suspiciously, but Shen Miao said softly, "Let's go."

Shen Miao has been in Qingzhou for three years, dealing with people in the officialdom for a long time, and he has been able to face all kinds of human emotions without changing his face, but it is rare to lose his composure today.

He clearly knew that Yu Jiayan and Liu Chao had known each other since they were young, and it was common for them to speak and behave casually, but inexplicable emotions arose in their hearts.

Even though he had unreasonable thoughts about the boy, those emotions were not jealousy.

Rather than being jealous of Liu Chao, it would be better to say envy.

Shen Miao once compared the boy who loves around him to a fat fish under the water, swimming among the rocks in the pool, spitting air bubbles back to the feeder sitting by the pool.

But the people by the pool accidentally discovered that the fat fish was not as cowardly and cute as they thought it was. It would also use its small tail to slap its fellow fish in the water, splashing a splash in the heart lake.

And the person by the pool is the person by the pool after all, he has no chance to be another fish, and he can't even break the water to measure this small fish with his own hands.

Because he didn't dare to wet his clothes.

So when I still didn't know whether swimming in the water was fun or not, a rare admiration and regret built up beside this small pond.

3.

In the days that followed, the swan geese would not be able to meet each other.

One evening, Shen Miao once again opened the letter from Yu Jiayan in the study.

The young man's handwriting is getting better and better, and he can even see some of his father's character. Perhaps it is exactly as the young man himself said in the letter - he was forced to practice calligraphy by his father, so that he could not only hold the pen with both hands, but even I won't hold my job anymore.

However, Shen Miao thought, what kind of appearance does Yu Jiayan have in front of his family? Is it cute and shy, or is he the same as he saw that day? Maybe the young man is holding the pen in dissatisfaction, and then he is planning to get away early.

Shen Miao sat quietly for a long time before spreading out a new piece of paper to reply.

Just at this time, a servant of the mansion came in with the box in his hand and asked for instructions: "Young Master Xie sent someone to bring this to you."

Mr. Xie is the direct son of the Xie family in Qingzhou. According to legend, the Xie family in Qingzhou is the descendant of Xie Yiqing, Xie Jing, a famous minister in the Liang Dynasty.Xie Jing resigned from office in his later years and traveled far away, and it was difficult for others to find his traces. The theory of "descendants" is naturally untestable.However, the Xie family is indeed a well-known poetry family in Qingzhou, and its son Xie Xiao is also a close friend.

That day Shen Miao chatted with Xie Xiao, and accidentally heard the latter talk about the famous Qingzhou inkstone produced in this place.Shen Miao had read about this object in the notes of his predecessors, saying that it is a high-quality Qingzhou inkstone, its quality is easy to carve into strange shapes, and it has a strange fragrance when it is ground.

Xie Xiao also said that there are two or three pieces in his study room, which have not been polished yet, and will be sent to Brother Shen someday.

When the brocade box was opened, there was indeed a Qingzhou inkstone in it. Before the shapes and patterns were carved, several inkstone eyes appeared on the stone surface, round and lovely, like the small bubbles of fish swimming and exhaling in the pond.

Why not carve a fish, Shen Miao thought with a pen in hand, carve a fish jumping out of the pond, so that when people see it, it will also see people outside the pond.

When I came back to my senses, the color had already fallen on the paper.The ink couldn't stand the time, and a drop fell from the tip of the wolf brush, covering most of the few three small characters, and the remaining "word" was gradually swallowed up by the ink ball.

Only then did Shen Miao wake up. He left the discarded piece of paper, left the table where the piece of paper was placed, got up and stood by the window.

Outside the window, a smear of night also dripped down from the highest point of the sky, gradually swallowing the corners of the setting sun.Shen Miao was stunned for a long time.

Shen Miao has always been aware that he has other thoughts about the boy.

But today he was thinking so much, he thought, so he couldn't use it as an explanation.

Perhaps unknowingly, the mood born of accidental peeping is built as a high wall by the time when we can't meet each other.

He was a pedestrian passing by and stopped by chance.Now I can't help but stand under the wall for a long time, in order to listen to the laughter of the people inside the wall.

*Inspired by Huang Zhongze's "The Red Wall of the Silver Han into the Looking Away" and "For Whom the Wind and Dew Stand at Midnight".

It is my favorite Qing poem! ! ! !