I'm going crazy and I'm green

1.

In the 23rd year of Yuanhe, Shen Miao returned to Beijing.It is a great honor for the emperor to bestow the mansion.

Standing in the courtyard, Shen Miao recalled reading at night when he was a teenager, his father's entrustment to him before his death, the exclaims of his servants from far and near on the day when the list was released, and finally the brocade bag that fell into his bosom four years ago.

There is a carp made of gold in the kit, which can be easily squeezed into the palm of your hand.

"My lord..." the servant said from the side, "The guests are coming one after another."

The first person to enter was Shen Miao's fellow practitioner in the Imperial College, he had a good relationship with him, and he was admitted to the Jinshi four years ago, and saw Qujiang Flower together.

The people who came to the banquet were still fellow practitioners, Jijiu and others.Liu Chao came not too early or too late, he talked with Shen Miao, then sat down and looked at the people around him.

Liu Chao and Shen Miao are about the same age, and the two are now weak. They both have outstanding appearances, but they are quite different.

Shen Miao glanced at Liu Chao's smiling eyes, settled the guests and walked towards the door.He knew who Liu Chao was looking for in the crowd.

Yu Jiayan's car was approaching from a distance, and the sharp-eyed servant at the door came in to report.

After listening to this, Shen Miao remembered what Yu Jiayan said in a letter once—the young man complained that he had been sealed as a Marquis, and it became inconvenient to even go out.Usually, by taking a small car, you can quietly turn to a bookstore to buy a book of words.Now the light and small carriage has been replaced by one that represents status, or it is the unique carriage of the Princess Mansion.No matter which one it was, before I reached the alley, there was shouting outside, "Young Lord has arrived".Those who don't know the inside story think that they are the robbers who robbed houses.

Shen Miao couldn't help laughing, and had already walked to the door before he knew it.It just so happened that Yu Jiayan also got out of the car, and as soon as he entered the door, he let out a soft exclamation, and slightly raised his head to look at himself.

Yu Jiayan came back to his senses and sighed embarrassingly: "Brother Shen...you...you are so tall!"

Shen Miao was actually looking at the boy too.

When I returned to Beijing, I had a quick glance, except for those thoughts of building more and more walls like building walls, the rest were all vague.This was the first time that Shen Miao had seen the boy's grown-up face up close.

But he didn't dare to trace it with his eyes, and lowered his eyes after a hasty sweep.

Of the two people who looked at each other just now, one sticks to etiquette and the other is limited by the front edge.

They stood at the door for a long time, everyone thought that the thousands of knots were only tied in their hearts, but they didn't expect that the same string was plucked between them.

The sudden autumn wind brought rain, blowing away the last bit of summer heat, and only people's hearts were anxious.

Since the housewarming banquet, Yu Jiayan hadn't come to see him, perhaps because he didn't have time.

The Qingzhou inkstone was sent out, but it was sealed in the warehouse, or it had been finely ground in front of the table, and turned into a letter in the letter.Shen Miao thought in his spare time, for whom was the ink researched, and where did the swan geese fly.

He laughed at himself for 20 years of studying sage books, but in the end he was an idiot for his daughter-in-law, and when he received the post from the princess' mansion, he couldn't help but feel joy in his heart.

When he opened it, he found that the post was handed over by Yu Jiayan's father.

Yu Jiayan's father, Yu Chengsi, had never been an official, but he was a famous scholar in Beijing.In the early years, someone said that "talking with Yu Lang is like bathing in the east wind, and you can know thousands of spring scenes" (1), which shows his great talent.

A few years ago, Shen Miao longed to go to Beijing to study, in order to be able to talk with such great Confucian scholars and great sages, and to solve all kinds of confusion in his heart.But when he looked at Yu Chengsi's handwriting, what appeared in front of his eyes was another line of writing, which was much more immature and familiar.

It's a pity that the person in the letter is not my sweetheart.

The low sigh that slipped out of the corner of his mouth without a sound, unknowingly added another new tile by the wall.

2.

Shen Miao found many reasons for the boy's disappearance during this period, and then they ran into each other at the corner of the Zhuijin Pavilion lobby.

At this time, Shen Miao happened to be discussing political affairs with the seniors of the Ministry of Officials, except for him, the rest were all in their prime, some even over half a hundred years old.However, Yu Jiayan and Liu Chao had some conflicts. The two were full of anger and fought and went downstairs, but they were both young men full of vitality.

They are all shrouded in the halo of bright lights, but separated by the silk ribbon hanging from the beams in the lobby, like two worlds.

Even sitting in the same room at the back, Shen Miao felt that he was separated.The boy was obviously a lot more cautious, he stuffed the pastry into his mouth awkwardly, and choked by accident.Shen Miao didn't think too much, subconsciously patted the boy on the back.But unexpectedly collided with the other hand, Liu Chao raised his head and looked at himself in surprise.

The latter's stunned eyes were like a sharp and long needle, unexpectedly poking the part where the fingertips touched.Shen Miao withdrew his hand, his fingertips tucked into his sleeves after being pricked, and a small amount of bright blood flowed out.That is the emotion buried under the skin of the body and forced to show up——

He wanted to be closer to the boy.

So when rumors spread that "The Princess Mansion wants to recruit Shen Lang as his son-in-law", Shen Miao didn't deal with it immediately.He found out the source early and came up with a solution, but when faced with meaningful inquiries, he kept silent and threw specious and vague answers to others, causing waves that gradually spread in circles .

When he was a teenager, his father not only taught Shen Miao that "you can't help but be happy", but also said that "a name is like a garment".

Shen Miao thought sarcastically, it seems that this famous festival can not only be used as a clothes to hide shame, but also can be used as a sharp knife to kill people invisible.

He secretly drew the sharp edge of the sharp blade towards himself, so the rumors became more and more unbearable, as if Shen Miao, the number one scholar, did not rely on his talent for admission, but relied on a good face.Even saints have asked about it.

Shen Miao exposed his lifeline in front of this sharp blade, not because he lost his mind, but because he was betting that the fat fish that had been hiding in the water and didn't want to see him would rush to the shore with its tail wagging, and the Princess Mansion would also give it to him. An expected explanation from myself.

3.

On the day of Yu Jia's coronation ceremony, Shen Miao was officially adopted by the Princess Mansion as a adopted son. He tied the piece of mutton jade engraved with the word "Yu" on his belt and walked towards the boy.

They get closer.

Shen Miao tried to make some more intimate gestures to Yu Jiayan, and occasionally took the witty words he didn't know how to come up with.Gradually, Yu Jiayan became less restrained, and even swam to him actively wagging his tail.

And when Yu Jiayan was sick, he didn't have to hear about it from other people a few days later, but he could directly board the carriage, gently carry the young man back to the bed in the princess mansion, and then call the doctor in the mansion.

Shen Miao thought that he was already satisfied.

But when the sleepy Yu Jiayan leaned softly in his arms, with his hands on his chest, like a small animal in the cold winter, he burrowed into the warm place without hesitation.The fleshy little paws stepped on the rapid heartbeat of the human chest, and also drew out the desire that had been lurking in the depths for a long time.

Shen Miao suppressed these desires in a self-deceiving manner.

Until the Qianqiu banquet, among the crowd, he heard Liu Chao say loudly: "Of course it's because I like Qingxing."

It was fearless and loud, it made everyone at the Qianqiu Banquet mess up, and it also messed up Shen Miao's heart.

It was night, and Shen Miao was sitting alone in the study.The little goldfish in his palm still shone brightly under the candle because of the owner's safekeeping.

The candlelight flickered impatiently, Shen Miao looked down at the thing in his hand, clenched it tightly, then pushed open the door and walked out.

The wind and frost outside the house are getting tighter, and it is the middle of the night.

(1) Changed to Zhu Xi's "know the Dongfeng side in a leisurely way".

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The two chapters are used to talk about Xiao Shen's holding back, because he is about to release the flood.

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The image of the red wall is used in both chapters, which symbolizes that Xiao Shen feels that Yu Jia speaks to him and is a person inside the red wall.He passed by by chance, stopped suddenly after hearing the laughter in the wall, and then got closer and closer.

Originally, at the end of the article, I wanted to use something like "So I also wanted to go to the red wall", "Why am I a person who only dares to secretly listen to the laughter inside the wall?" Not reconciled.But I felt that this was too blunt, so I used a more vague wording owo