i fell in love with a straight guy

The first time my brother saw me so excited, he was stunned and even forgot to chase me.

He seemed to want to say something to me, but he couldn't open his mouth after all.

I actually didn't run very far.My heart felt like a needle was being pricked, and the pain swept through my whole body along the blood vessels, and my legs went limp all of a sudden.

I half knelt on the ground, leaning on the wall and coughing violently.

I felt like I was about to cough up my lungs, and the pain seemed to come to me from all directions. My vision and hearing gradually blurred, and I couldn't tell whether it was my penis that was hurting or my soul was hurting.

Kneeling on the ground for a while, I felt that I regained a little sanity.I took big mouthfuls of breath, like a dying fish poking its head out to absorb oxygen, I tried my best to calm my mind.

I still stood up and walked slowly on the road step by step.

I don't know where to go, but I don't want to go home.

So I went into a bar and tried to get myself drunk.

I was alone at the bar that night and drank a lot of alcohol.

My stomach has never been very good.When I got out of the bar, I was in so much pain that I couldn't walk.

I don't know how I got home.I don't know how a man who was so drunk and unconscious got home.

All I remember is that I stumbled a long way, without light, alone.

The last scene before I lost consciousness was the kind where I fell in front of a tree with my face on the ground.

When I was lying on the wet mud and was lifted up by that vague figure, I thought of my brother for a moment.

It must be my brother who came to pick me up.

In the past, every time I quarreled with those old guys in the company, I would drag him out for a drink, and every time I got drunk.

But no matter how late, no matter how far away, he will take me home and wash me up.On the second day, there was always hangover soup in front of my bed, and the takeaway he ordered was on the dining table.

Every time.

When I woke up early in the morning, my head was so painful that I lifted the quilt and staggered to the bathroom while leaning on the wall.

My ghostly pale face was reflected on the glass.

My clothes and shoes were all taken off, and they were dried on the balcony after washing.Although my body has a strong smell of alcohol, there is no dirt stain on my body.

I'm a drunk, and it's impossible for me to return to the light, so I clean myself up and go to bed obediently.

This person... has such a magical power that makes it easy for people to fall into his tenderness.

Yesterday I was let out in bed all day because of a hangover.When I woke up this morning, I opened Moments and saw my brother's new update.

It's just a simple photo.My brother and his young female colleague stood next to each other, with their fingers clasped together in an intimate manner. The girl smiled brightly.

The accompanying text is simple and without any emotional color.

Out of order.

The comments below are all kinds of wonderful, without exception, with blessings and comfort.

"Old He finally got out of the singles. I thought this grandson would die alone."

"Congratulations, you are not too young, so hurry up and get the certificate."

"Sister-in-law is so beautiful, Brother He is blessed."

"It's a good match, 9999999"

"Congratulations... 9999..."

……

My mind was blank for a moment, and my heart seemed to be hit hard by someone, which made me slow down for a long time but never recovered.

My brother has a girlfriend.He rejected me not to preserve the reputation of the two of us, nor to protect me from going astray, just because he is a straight man.

He doesn't like me.

I picked up the phone, grinned and forced a smile, and took many photos of myself from the girl's perspective.

I buckled my body out and P was in the girl's place.

I posted a lot of photos for myself, some smiling, some blaming, some grimacing, and carefully putting the background on each picture P, including the Caribbean coast, the underwater waterfall of Mauritius, the sea of ​​flowers in Provence, and A square in Prague with the Lake of Love in Bruges...

You see, brother, in my heart, we have traveled to so many places together.

I even fantasized about us being together.

'Brother, I love me so much, would you like to be with me? '

"I am willing, Xiaoyu, I love you too..."

'Brother, tell me, we are getting married, will the wedding be held in your hometown, or in your hometown?Do we wear black suits or white suits?What brand of ring shall we order?Where to take wedding photos? '

"It's all up to you, as long as there is you, everything is good..."

'Brother, if we are together, I will have a family. I have always wanted to have a family!Do you think my parents will like me? '

"You are so cute, so simple, my parents must like you very much, and they will probably call me an old cow for eating young grass..."

'Brother, I'm ready, why don't you come to pick me up? '

I'm clumsy, and I don't look good no matter what. In the photos, there is always a huge crack between us that can't be erased.

I had a momentary breakdown, tears poured out like a flood that broke a bank, I threw my phone on the ground fiercely, watching the photos that carried all my love and hope turned into a black screen.

I couldn't see my own face, but I figured it must have been distorted and hideous.I didn't make a sound, I collapsed to the point of losing my voice like a collapse of faith.

The person I love, my senior brother, is a straight man.

The first warmth that I won by myself in my life, the first person who is willing to stay by my side, willing to take care of me sincerely, treat me well, cry with me, make me laugh, I have someone I love.

My life is like a roundabout.My brother held the lamp, held my hand, walked with me on a very firm, warm, and happy road, circled around, and left me where I was.

The person who walked with me for a long time took another person's hand and walked towards the straight and spacious highway of his life.

I'm just a circular road in his life, a speed bump, if he bypasses it, of course he can continue to move forward.

But how could he understand that the Ring Road is my whole life.