I want to reunite with you

After entering the bridal chamber, everyone went out, I sat by the bed and waited for Kou Xinian.It turned out that this is how a woman feels when she is waiting for her husband in the bridal chamber. She wants him to come quickly, but she is afraid that he will come and she doesn't know what to say.

Xi Lin said that the red hijab needs to be uncovered by the groom himself, and he needs to drink Hejin wine to be considered a husband and wife.

I'm afraid, I always failed Kou Xiannian in my last life.

After thinking like this for another hour and a half, it was quite dark outside, the servant girl came in to light the wax and then retreated out.

I woke up this morning and drank a bowl of porridge without eating. I was sleepy and hungry and couldn't sleep.

The door was pushed open at the right time, I thought it was Kou Xian who had come, and sat upright without daring to move.

"My son, there is still a while for the master, order the slaves to bring some food."

I don't know whether it was disappointment or touch, I said "um", and I didn't eat until the maid quit.

The hijab hasn't been taken off yet, so why hasn't Kou Xinian come to have a drink with me?

My stomach screamed a few more times in protest. I patted my stomach and got up and sat down at the table without taking off the hijab, slowly eating the sweet pastry on the table.

I like Xiaoxitian, especially this peach blossom cake.

This kind of peach blossom cake is only available in Kou's house. In my previous life, after Kou and I got separated in the past, I searched all over the world and couldn't taste this taste anymore.

Somehow, the corners of my eyes got wet, and I couldn't stop crying.

After reuniting with Kou Xinian in my previous life, I didn't seem to be as happy as I imagined, and I even got used to it at night. No one helped to cover the quilt I kicked off, so I had to wake up from the cold and search for the quilt all over the floor.

Crying made me even more tired, unable to support my head and carefully lying on the table, ready to take a nap.

I vaguely feel that someone has snatched the peach blossom crisps in my hands, my palms are itchy, and then around my mouth.

Kou Xinian hugged me, I could feel his cautiousness, I couldn't feel his breath when I was so close, he gently put me on the couch.

I couldn't pretend anymore so I rolled my eyes and looked at him.

The door was pushed open at the right time, "Master, this is Hebei wine." The maid put down the tray and did not stop, then turned around and closed the door.

Kou Xiannian didn't move but looked at me, I knew his concerns, if I didn't want to drink, he would immediately withdraw the wine.

But, I want to drink the good wine.So I got out of bed myself and poured him a glass.

"Come."

I handed the wine to Kou Xinian, and Kou Xinian gave him a meal.My heart also hurt a bit.What kind of unspeakable impression did I leave on him, to make him so...

Then I had to undress him, and he seemed even more shocked.However, I was clumsy, and in the end he took off the red wedding dress himself, together with mine.

I don't seem to know anything other than being a grandson.

Kou Xinian was a little dazed until he lay down on the couch. He covered the quilts on both of us and slept well. At least there could be room for a strong man in between.

I have never slept in the same couch with him, and I am very flustered at this moment, I don't know what the two men should do in the bridal chamber night, and the hands under the quilt started to sweat again.

It's cold sweat, I'm very cold now, everywhere on my body is cold.

He and I didn't talk to anyone, it was so cold for a long time, the sleepiness was gone, and the breathing of the people next to us gradually became even.

So, I bravely moved to Kou Xinian's side bit by bit, probably because of drinking, I felt warm even a little close to him.

I couldn't sleep, so I looked at him generously while he was asleep.The moonlight against Kou Xi Nian is so beautiful, he is gentle and elegant, with picturesque eyebrows, high nose bridge, smooth and clean jawline...

And lips, Kou Xinian's lips are moist.Even if I didn't love him before, I still think his lips are pretty.

Now that I think about it, no matter how I lose my temper, he will always admit his mistakes first and coax me to accommodate me.I am really proud of being favored, and the more he behaves like this, the more I will embarrass him.

Such a good Kou Xinian, why did I turn a blind eye in my previous life?

Thinking of this, I couldn't help leaning forward, I wanted to kiss him, how could I do nothing in the wedding night, but I just shrank back in an instant.

I'm like a thief stealing things, if I don't move quickly, I will be discovered.In the end, he had no choice but to bury his head beside Kou Xinian, his face was scorching hot, and he felt unprecedentedly ashamed.

Kou Xinian rolled over from a deep sleep, and this time, he wrapped my whole body in his arms.The sudden turn of events startled me, thinking he was about to wake up.So he didn't dare to move, and stayed there for a long time without daring to take a big breath.However, the people beside him were still breathing evenly without waking up.

I just let out a deep breath, raised my face and looked at him again, and I didn't feel the cold all over my body. It was the first time that Kou Xinnian would feel overwhelmed when sleeping.

I quietly raised my hand to touch Kou Xinian's face, my breath sprayed on the face, smelling of alcohol, I felt like I wanted something, but I couldn't grasp the feeling.

I... want to kiss him.

Only dare to think.

Just touching my eyelids became heavier and heavier, and I don't know when I fell asleep.

On the second day, the light dazzled my eyes, and I opened my eyes suddenly with something in mind, and when I touched my side, it was cold.

In my previous life, Kou Xiannian made me so angry that I picked up an errand on the second day of my wedding and left early.It's been several months since I left, and I was secretly having fun at that time, but now, I feel a little uncomfortable, it's the kind of discomfort that a newlywed is left out of, and I can't express it out of my throat.

After being stunned for a moment, I hurriedly got up, maybe he hasn't left yet, I want to keep him.

The door of the room opened suddenly, and I ran amok to face the maid who came in.

The pot of hot tea spilled all over my wrists, and I was unsteady on my feet, and I fell into the debris.It was only by supporting my hands that my face, which had been exaggerated since I was a child, survived.But my hand was not only hot red but also cut a big gash.

I was in so much pain that I wanted to cry, blood was dripping all over the floor, but if I cried, I would definitely frighten this little servant girl of the Kou Mansion.But I couldn't help it, so I cried hard and said, "I'm fine, I'm fine."

Still frightened the servant girl, she ran out in a hurry, and when she came back, not only Xi Lin, but also Kou Xinian were behind her.

The tears on my face should be ugly, but he hasn't left yet, that's great.

He looked at me and didn't speak for a while, and I was even more wronged. Why did he have such a helpless expression? I don't like it at all.

Xi Lin originally wanted to help me up, but I was so angry that I got up from the ground silently.There is debris all over the floor, I don't have shoes on, but I don't want to look too pitiful, and I have to walk back in big strides.

Kou Xiannian suddenly picked me up from the back, in fact he hugged me, but his expression seemed to be carrying something insignificant, I was even more wronged and wanted to cry again.

He may think that he is better than the doctor. He took the gauze and bandaged me, with a warm face and a distance. I still don't like it.After handling it well, I didn't say a word, and he and I really didn't say a word.

Waiting for someone to go out, Xi Lin said: "My son, if you don't like it, don't hurt yourself. You are the one who hurts, and you can't threaten anyone."

I can't understand when I hurt myself, obviously I fell.

After I washed up, I put on a relatively elegant brocade robe and a velvet cloak before Xi Lin let me go out.

Yesterday's snow became heavier and thicker, forming a thick layer on the ground.

I wanted to find Kou in the past, but I was afraid that he would go away quietly. If I found him, it would be fine to watch him without saying anything.But when I really wanted to see someone, I was afraid again, so I hurriedly pulled Xi Lin back to stand in the corner, put my finger to my lips, and signaled him to silence.

"This is....?"

I ignored Xi Lin's doubts and walked back: "This is not good."

Kou Xinian would find me clingy.

Before Xi Lin could react, Butler Yu ran over and called me: "His Royal Highness, the master said that it's cold so you don't need to rush back, go to the front hall to warm up."

"I don't mind..."

You can't go there, as long as you know that Kou Xinian didn't leave.

At the corner, Kou Xiannian strode over: "What is Your Highness doing at the air outlet?"

As soon as his voice came out, I didn't know what to say, and I didn't dare to go back.Looking down at the white gauze in his hand, Kou Xiannian wrapped it very carefully, not too loose but not too tight.

"Since you're here, go to the front hall to warm up, and breakfast will be ready immediately."

His voice is still warm, my ears are itchy, and so is my heart.Follow him obediently to the front hall.They walked side by side, but there was a distance of one person's width between them.

Silently, I moved closer, just enough to wipe the corner of my clothes.Thinking of Kou Xinian calling me "Your Highness" just now, I felt it was inappropriate and too natural, so I said, "You don't need to call me Your Highness"

Kou Xiannian paused slightly and looked at me.

"Call me small characters, Hengshi."

There was an imperceptible smile on the corner of Kou Xinian's mouth, he nodded and continued to move forward.

Damn, just such a smile, I was stunned.

Going to the main hall, Kou Xiannian ordered someone to bring me the hand stove, and went to work again.After all, it was getting warmer, and I dozed off with the hand stove in my arms. I may have been floating in the underworld for a long time, and I was so tired.

Yimeng went back to the Naihe Bridge again, and Moshi used a large brush to draw the small ink-colored characters under Kou Xinian's name: life will not end well.

I was the ghost crying and howling, and I blamed myself.Moshi might have gotten used to it, so he didn't scare the ghost out of him.

There was warmth on my face, and I woke up crying.

Kou Xianian squatted in front of me, he stroked my face, in fact he was helping me wipe away my tears.

I didn't say a word for a long time, I just raised my hand to cover his hand and closed my eyes. Seeing Kou Xinian at this time would only make me want to cry even more.I was not a person who loves to cry, so I don't let myself suffer the slightest bit of grievance, I will get revenge...

"Homesick?" Kou Xinian asked.

I saw the unbearable in his eyes, why there is unbearable, I miss home.

Tears flowed and I felt wronged again.

I leaned against Kou Xinian's shoulder and nodded involuntarily.It was intimate, but I just wanted to be next to him.

When I was a child, I met Kou Xinian. He always thought that I was a little girl, and he would not let me ride a horse if I wanted to. He only said that girls can't learn to ride a horse, they have to learn how to embroider.

I just remember that I cried for a long time, and I couldn't coax him well for several days. When I saw Kou Xi Nian, I hugged my arm and bit it.

Even so, I still run behind his ass every day, calling my brother and brother.

After that, goodbye is now, I grow up.

The emperor bestowed the marriage, Kou Xinian was a descendant of an eunuch, but his position was low, everyone said he was superior to me, and I felt the same way back then, so I didn't like him at all.

Afraid that I would miss home, Kou Xi said young and softly, "I'll go back to Rongyang City when I finish my work, okay?"

"Will you come with me?"

Kou Xiannian paused and didn't speak.

I said, "I want you to come with me."

He paused for a while, and agreed to me.I leaned against him and refused to straighten up, so I whispered "Brother Nian" in his ear

It's very light, Kou Xinian should not be able to hear it, because of this, I wanted to call it out, and the childhood memory was awakened at once, and I was very happy at that time.

"Did you learn later? Riding a horse."

I turned my face to look at him. It turned out that he heard it and remembered bullying me.

"Learned to embroider."

I did only learn embroidery later on, and a peach blossom was embroidered on a white handkerchief.I begged my mother to teach me to embroider stitch by stitch, but I didn't think much about it at the time.

I just thought Brother Nian was leaving, and Brother Nian liked embroidery so he embroidered one and gave it to him.But in the end, because it was too ugly, I couldn't see the appearance of peach blossoms, or it would be more accurate to say that it was messy.

I don't know where the handkerchief went

Wiping all the tears on Kou Xinian's shoulders, I raised my head.Kou Xinian held my hand, and I realized that my hand was cold.

"are you hungry?"

I stared at him holding my hand in a daze, and just about to speak, I realized that Kou Xinian was about to withdraw his hand, my heart skipped a beat, and I quickly grabbed his hand.

"Brother..." My heart beat very fast for a moment, and I didn't want to call him by his name coldly or call him a lackey of the court ironically like in my previous life.

The only one who can be called brother is the only nickname that can be called after letting go of prejudice.

Kou Xinian seemed to panic, he didn't dare to look at me directly.

When I asked about it a few years later, Kou Xinian said that at this moment of panic, he and Li Shu had already thought about it.

Kou Xiannian lost his mind in an instant, this look only appeared when I humiliated him with words back then.

I knew what he was thinking, so I stood up and held his hand tightly: "Brother, I'm hungry." I don't want Kou Xinian to think about it anymore. With a humble appearance in the dust, I was simply too bad back then.

I didn't know before, but I felt that Kou Xinian was inconsistent with his appearance, and acted like a villain, making troubles and tossing him in different ways.The most excessive time was also the time when they got together and separated.

I love him.The medicine coaxed him to drink and threw him into the brothel. I don't know what happened that night.

Perhaps Kou Xiannian was really angry and agreed to break up with me.He never saw me again after getting the book of union and separation.

It hurts me to recall it now, and what I did was worse than a beast.

The food is all my taste, and the ones from Rongyang City are not spicy at all.But Kou Xiannian is a native of Jian'an, and he likes everything spicy.

How can I swallow this bland table? I was thinking about the things in my heart, so I didn't care whether the porridge was cold or not, so I scooped a spoonful and sent it to my mouth.

My hot tongue is numb.

But it's not easy to spit it out directly in the mouth, it's so hot that you can't swallow or spit it out.

Kou Xiannian hurriedly urged me to spit it out, but I didn't, so I swallowed it while brewing.

Xi Lin shook his head immediately, I knew that kid must dislike me in his heart.

Kou Xinian is the son of Kou Yu, godson of the admiral of Dongchang, and the head of Yulongwei.

The burden of being a senior official is heavy, he always has to run around the country, in my previous life I wished he would die outside, so I didn't care much about whether it was good for him to go out or not.

Kou would send home letters in the past years, but I never read them, and often burned them as soon as I got them.

What a beast I am!

It was another night, Kou Xinian entered the palace, and did not come back after midnight.I was lying in bed so cold that I tossed and turned and couldn't sleep.The winter in Jian'an City is much harder than the winter in Rongyang City. It is not cold but bitingly cold.

In my previous life, I was very afraid of the cold, and my hands and feet were still cold even after wrapping up the quilt tightly.

In the second half of the night, I couldn't stand it any longer, and fell asleep in the cold.

I fell into a gentle place in a daze, and I finally became warmer.

I had a spring dream.

Kou Xinian lay beside me and hugged me, I reached out and hugged his waist tightly, calling him vaguely.I couldn't help rubbing my face, the softness between my lips was about to leave for a moment, I clung to it.

This kiss was so real, I felt uncomfortable all over, and I wanted something, but I still couldn't say it, I just wanted Kou Xinian to hold me tighter, I licked my lips and raised my hand to pinch his earlobe.

This habit came from childhood, I like to pinch the earlobe of others when I sleep, when I was a child, I fell asleep pinching Kou Xinian's earlobe during the half a year when I came to Jian'an City.

No one knows about this little habit anymore. Although I am arrogant and indulgent, I look cold, how can I play by pulling other people's earlobes when I am awake.